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Ocean Summer

by Philip Yancey

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I’ve been dredging my life for recollections to include in a memoir, which will come out in October with the title Where the Light Fell. Here’s a memory from one of the annual trips my family in Atlanta made to visit relatives in Philadelphia. I was ten years old at the time.

One summer, to give us relief from Philadelphia’s heat, Mother drives us to Ocean City, New Jersey—“America’s favorite family resort,” the billboards proclaim. She feels safe there because the Methodist ministers who founded the town passed a law that alcohol could never be served or sold.

While we are driving across New Jersey, Mother decides that my brother Marshall and I need haircuts. She pulls into a parking lot beside a white frame building with a barber pole out front, a red-and-white-striped cylinder spins around and around like a giant candy cane. When the door opens we see eight men sitting in chairs waiting, and only two barber chairs, both empty. “Oh, sorry, it looks like you’re busy today,” Mother says, and starts to leave.

“No, no, not at all,” the barber replies, jumping up and adjusting his white apron. “These are just friends passing the time. Come right in. Your boys are next.”

Child in barber chair (stock photo)I climb in the barber chair and notice that the barber’s hands are shaking. He runs the electric razor over my head and I feel a sharp nick. “Ow!” I yell. “That hurts!” Mother shoots me a disapproving, behave-yourself look. It happens again, and then again. Each time I yelp, and each time I get that look. I pull my hand out from under the cloth, reach up, and feel blood.

Just then the door opens and three policemen walk in with their hands on their holsters. “Don’t anybody move,” the biggest one says. “You’re all coming with me.”

It turns out that the barber shop is a front for an illegal bookie joint, where gamblers bet on horses. Everybody in the area knows it, and no one goes there for a haircut. The “barber” is the main bookmaker. Now my mother has to explain how she, in a car with a Georgia license plate, just happened to end up at that particular barber shop in New Jersey. Whatever she says must satisfy the officer, because he lets us go.

At last I get some sympathy for the ordeal of my ragged haircut, which has left me with razor burns and at least four bleeding nicks. The best part comes next. Women at the beauty shop next door have been standing outside watching the police raid, and a kind beautician offers to cut my brother’s hair. I tease Marshall for weeks about going to a beauty shop.

Child at beach on summer vacation (stock photo)After we escape from the barber and complete our drive to the coast, my first glimpse of the ocean takes my breath away. I want the scene to freeze for a second so I can take in the view, but nonstop waves break one after another in curls of white. The sea seems to stretch out forever, and off in the distance I see an ocean freighter headed for another continent. Suddenly I feel small, very aware of how little I know about the world.

Eager as a puppy, I change into a bathing suit and dash into the water, only to jump back, startled by the cold and the tug of undertow on my legs. Each wave leaves a deposit of sand and shells and foam, and then, with a sound like a flushing toilet, tries to slurp it all back into the sea. I wade out a little farther, lean back, and let the current carry me. Gradually I learn the calm spots just beyond the waves, where I can float in peace, gazing at puffy clouds in the blue sky above. I lick my lips and taste salt.

Every time I duck under the water, my head stings in four places, like tiny needles embedded in my scalp.

Childhood memory of a summer vacation to Ocean CityAt night, the famous Ocean City boardwalk beckons. A searchlight plays back and forth across the sky like a giant windshield wiper. A sign at one pizza place promises a hundred pizzas to anyone who can eat one of their giant concoctions in less than fifteen minutes. Half the food is new to me: funnel cakes, frozen custard, caramel popcorn, stromboli, and something called saltwater taffy.

Marshall and I explore the boardwalk’s amusement park. Marshall leads me to bumper cars, and we speed around and smash each other so hard that the manager orders us to leave. Next we try the Ferris wheel. We go high in the air, and when the wheel stops to let in passengers at the bottom, our seat sways in the cool night breeze. Far below lies the ocean, black as the sky, its waves shining in the moonlight like bands of snow.

Beneath the stars, off in the distance I barely make out the lights of Atlantic City. All that evening, women in skimpy sequined outfits on our boardwalk have been handing out pamphlets about the evil twin of Ocean City, a few miles up the coast. People drink liquor there, and gamble, Mother has warned us. I look at it with longing because I’ve heard about its animal shows with trained sea lions, boxing cats, and dogs that do tricks on a trampoline. Best of all, Atlantic City’s Steel Pier has a world-famous diving horse.

A man at the amusement park tells me he’s seen the show. “That dumb horse walks up a ramp—oh, I dunno, maybe some sixty feet in the air. It stands there on a platform trying not to look around until a pretty woman jumps on its back. It don’t even have a saddle. Then, with her clinging on bareback, the thing dives headfirst off the platform into a twelve-foot pool of water. I seen it with my own eyes.”

Oh, how I want to see that fearless horse! Yet, like the rest of Atlantic City, it remains tantalizingly out of reach.

This story, along with many others, had to be cut in order to keep the memoir a manageable length. As I include it here, I wonder what family vacation scenes stand out from your childhood?

 

 

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  1. Janis Murphy Avatar
    Janis Murphy

    Hats off to all those single moms, mine included, who managed to take their kids on cool summer vacations. It was not easy for them.

  2. Celeste Sanchez McFarland Avatar
    Celeste Sanchez McFarland

    Hi, Philip. I am so looking forward to your book of memories. Some few we will share, you know. Like the Yancey family, the Sanchez family vacationed with our Spanish relations in Ybor City, Florida, with beach-ing done on the causeway heading toward Clearwater. But there was one year – there’s always one year – when my mom prevailed upon my dad and she rented a miniscule camping trailer and the seven of us headed off in our station wagon to Jekyll Island – long before any sort of modern conveniences arrived on Jekyll. Sleeping arrangements were that Mother and we four girls had the cozy-not-comfy trailer beds and Daddy and my brother had the extra-cozy-extra-not-comfy back of the station wagon. Daddy, whose idea of camping was from Holiday Inn to Holiday Inn, declared on morning number one that it had been most difficult to sleep with my brother breathing in his face all night. Then it was time for his coffee, made with local Jekyll water, which in those ancient of days, was odorous with sulfur! Sure, there were beach walks, shelling, swimming, and all one would expect, but my mother’s idyll of family memory-making did not come to fruition on account of Daddy’s difficulties with “roughing it.” The shortened adventure had its fitting finale upon arrival home when Mother set us kids to cleaning up the trailer for its return to the rental agency. My little sisters had filled a big plastic bucket with their found treasures from the Jekyll beach – and that bucket had overturned in the trailer. Not only did we have to mop up the residual water from the shell collection, but we discovered, immediately upon opening the door, that there had been something alive in that bucket and the aroma was that of a load held WAY out in front of you as you RAN past the kitchen trash can to the outside trash can with shrimp shells or fish heads or whatever sea treasure remains there were from supper. Fred and I have retired now to Royston, Georgia. I think we need to make a return trip to Jekyll. I assume they’ve solved the sulfur problem.

    1. Philip Yancey Avatar
      Philip Yancey

      Well done, Celeste!

  3. DeLora Fennig Avatar
    DeLora Fennig

    Looking forward to your book

  4. Jeff Winter Avatar

    I really appreciate what Phil wrote. I grew up in NJ and spent many weekdays and weeks in Ocean City enjoying the sun and surf. I loved the boardwalk and the saltwater taffy my parents bought me at Shrivers. Amazingly, I was ordained as a Presbyterian pastor at the First Presbyterian Church in Ocean City. Twenty years later I met Phil when I pastored the Corona Presbyterian Church in Downtown Denver. He and his wife attended the C.S. Lewis conference we hosted. Thank you Phil for your many years of Christ-honoring writing. You have greatly enriched my life.

  5. Kathleen Bufford Avatar
    Kathleen Bufford

    The most memorable vacation from when I was probably between 7 and 9 years old, was one of only a few short trips my family ever took. It was memorable because we were away from home, but more so because I began to learn who I was and would become as a person. There were no reference points in this story to the nearly ever-present “self” who my mom or others thought I was or should be—including preferences, behaviors, and thoughts of what God expected of me. This time, even the choice of which souvenir-trinkets I “would really like” was left up to me.
    We were at Letchworth State Park in upstate NY—over 14,000 acres of park, as I recall.
    It was likely on the second day that I wandered into a historic long-house where, I was sure, my Algonquin Indian great, great, great grandmother lived. During those quiet hours when my mother left me to my own imagining, what I surmised about that gentle, quiet, but knowledgeable woman merged with who I realized I was and always would be.
    My ancient relative and I looked about with knowledge on her part, I was sure, but with craving for knowledge for me. Everything seemed new and unknown: trees, plants, shady places and patches of sunlight. Out there, seemingly alone, I inhaled what would become life-long love of quiet outdoor places and plants, some of which I was certain would be for healing ailments, though I could not tell which plants were for what use. She knew, and that was enough for me.
    On subsequent days, on different paths, I found myself crouched down picking up rocks and pebbles, puzzling over differences in coloring, smoothness, and density, as well as potential use. I remember that on more than one walk, I only knew that the others thought I must be lost when with great relief someone found me, far behind the rest, lost inside myself, discovering the gentleness and love of quiet places that I surely shared with those who had preceded me. To this day, that nookomis sometimes goes with me, enjoying, from my eyes to hers, a much wider world than she knew. I’ve made the “iffy” assumption, just my hope really, that somehow, someday, she will be with the creator, with me, elakomkwik in the heavens as we have been on planet earth.

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  1. Hi, Philip. I am so looking forward to your book of memories. Some few we will share, you know. Like the Yancey family, the Sanchez family vacationed with our Spanish relations in Ybor City, Florida, with beach-ing done on the causeway heading toward Clearwater. But there was one year – there’s always one year – when my mom prevailed upon my dad and she rented a miniscule camping trailer and the seven of us headed off in our station wagon to Jekyll Island – long before any sort of modern conveniences arrived on Jekyll. Sleeping arrangements were that Mother and we four girls had the cozy-not-comfy trailer beds and Daddy and my brother had the extra-cozy-extra-not-comfy back of the station wagon. Daddy, whose idea of camping was from Holiday Inn to Holiday Inn, declared on morning number one that it had been most difficult to sleep with my brother breathing in his face all night. Then it was time for his coffee, made with local Jekyll water, which in those ancient of days, was odorous with sulfur! Sure, there were beach walks, shelling, swimming, and all one would expect, but my mother’s idyll of family memory-making did not come to fruition on account of Daddy’s difficulties with “roughing it.” The shortened adventure had its fitting finale upon arrival home when Mother set us kids to cleaning up the trailer for its return to the rental agency. My little sisters had filled a big plastic bucket with their found treasures from the Jekyll beach – and that bucket had overturned in the trailer. Not only did we have to mop up the residual water from the shell collection, but we discovered, immediately upon opening the door, that there had been something alive in that bucket and the aroma was that of a load held WAY out in front of you as you RAN past the kitchen trash can to the outside trash can with shrimp shells or fish heads or whatever sea treasure remains there were from supper. Fred and I have retired now to Royston, Georgia. I think we need to make a return trip to Jekyll. I assume they’ve solved the sulfur problem.

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  2. I really appreciate what Phil wrote. I grew up in NJ and spent many weekdays and weeks in Ocean City enjoying the sun and surf. I loved the boardwalk and the saltwater taffy my parents bought me at Shrivers. Amazingly, I was ordained as a Presbyterian pastor at the First Presbyterian Church in Ocean City. Twenty years later I met Phil when I pastored the Corona Presbyterian Church in Downtown Denver. He and his wife attended the C.S. Lewis conference we hosted. Thank you Phil for your many years of Christ-honoring writing. You have greatly enriched my life.

    Reply
  3. The most memorable vacation from when I was probably between 7 and 9 years old, was one of only a few short trips my family ever took. It was memorable because we were away from home, but more so because I began to learn who I was and would become as a person. There were no reference points in this story to the nearly ever-present “self” who my mom or others thought I was or should be—including preferences, behaviors, and thoughts of what God expected of me. This time, even the choice of which souvenir-trinkets I “would really like” was left up to me.
    We were at Letchworth State Park in upstate NY—over 14,000 acres of park, as I recall.
    It was likely on the second day that I wandered into a historic long-house where, I was sure, my Algonquin Indian great, great, great grandmother lived. During those quiet hours when my mother left me to my own imagining, what I surmised about that gentle, quiet, but knowledgeable woman merged with who I realized I was and always would be.
    My ancient relative and I looked about with knowledge on her part, I was sure, but with craving for knowledge for me. Everything seemed new and unknown: trees, plants, shady places and patches of sunlight. Out there, seemingly alone, I inhaled what would become life-long love of quiet outdoor places and plants, some of which I was certain would be for healing ailments, though I could not tell which plants were for what use. She knew, and that was enough for me.
    On subsequent days, on different paths, I found myself crouched down picking up rocks and pebbles, puzzling over differences in coloring, smoothness, and density, as well as potential use. I remember that on more than one walk, I only knew that the others thought I must be lost when with great relief someone found me, far behind the rest, lost inside myself, discovering the gentleness and love of quiet places that I surely shared with those who had preceded me. To this day, that nookomis sometimes goes with me, enjoying, from my eyes to hers, a much wider world than she knew. I’ve made the “iffy” assumption, just my hope really, that somehow, someday, she will be with the creator, with me, elakomkwik in the heavens as we have been on planet earth.

    Reply

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